Sometimes I Forget That I Still Need Jesus
Updated: Apr 12, 2018
I have noticed something about myself that I don't really care for. I tend to seek Jesus only when I need Him. If the pantry is stocked, I go on my merry way without a Thank You Jesus. When I wake up in the morning with no aches and pains, I start my day without a prayer. When my annual physical reveals good health, I think nothing of it. When the kids are behaving, I pat myself on the back and proclaim I am the parent of the year. It's easy to let prayer time become almost non-existent. Maybe just quickly over a meal. The same exact prayer I prayed over that meal the day before. Bible study is replaced by the TV. I start to think I have it all figured out. And then I head on my way. A way that ends up with a distance from God.
Then tragedy comes. Money starts running out. Health fails. Children disobey. And I run to Jesus. I have a lot of distance to cover because I have wandered off. He is right where I left Him.
I start to wonder. Why I am coming to Jesus only when I need Him to help with something? What if I just stayed near Him? What if I just longed for a close relationship with Him because of who He is? Not just for what He can do for me.
In John 6:22-42, people were following Jesus to get their needs met. They wanted food to keep them well fed. They wanted their sick healed.
26 “He answered, 'Why are you looking for me? Is it because you saw miraculous signs? The truth is, you are looking for me because you ate the bread and were satisfied.” 27 “But earthly food spoils and ruins. So don't work to get that kind of food. But work to get the food that stays good and gives you eternal life. The Son of Man will give you that food. He is the only one qualified by God the Father to give it to you.”
When Jesus explained who He was, a lot of His followers left Him. They wanted their needs taken care of, but they were having trouble believing He was the Son of God.
John 6:60 “When Jesus' followers heard this, many of them said, 'This teaching is hard. Who can accept it?'” Verse 66, “After Jesus said these things, many of His followers left and stopped following Him.” They were enjoying the miracles of Jesus, but didn't want to commit to following Him.
I want to follow Jesus for who He is. I want to understand who He is. I want a relationship with Him through lack and plenty. Sickness and health. Prodigal children and perfect kids. Maybe then my prayer time, Bible reading and character wouldn't suffer when I think I have life all figured out. Do you tend to do the same thing with your relationship with Jesus? Let's make Jesus more of a constant in our lives and less of a quick Walk-in-Clinic visit. He longs to bless you, heal you and direct you. But He would much rather prepare your heart for eternity. Let's work on knowing Him for who He is. Not just what He can do for us.